Self Improvement

Getting Out of a Rut

Getting a cart out of a rut is hard.

The sides are steep and it’s hard to gain purchase.

Just a slight turn to either side is ineffective. The wheels won’t catch; they just hit the sides & bounce off.

To get it out you need to commit. Making a confident directional change and then giving it a big effort to pull.

That pull also needs to go on for some time. But if you keep at, especially at the moment where you’re holding all the weight right at the lip. It’s just one final heave and you’re out; you’re in control again!

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My Life Reboot 18 Months On

TL;DR Years of a terrible diet, no exercise and not dealing with my underlying stress & anxiety problems left me a gibbering wreck. I was having panic attacks, experiencing physical pain and I was deeply, deeply unhappy. Enough was enough, so 2 years ago I took control and started making changes. It worked, mostly. This is a summary of what I did and how I’m still doing. (Updated for Geek Mental Help Week October 2016).

I recently came across a post on Medium that Wil Wheaton wrote. I hadn’t heard the name before, but a quick Google told me that he was Wes in Star Trek the Next Generation and he also appears in the Big Bang Theory.

Anyway, he wrote a great post entitled Six Months After I Hit The Reboot Button On My Life and it struck me how there were a lot of parallels to the lifestyle changes I’ve made.

It’s almost 18 months to the day that I made my own decision to take my health into my own hands so I figured I’d write an update to the one I posted nearly a year ago. However, this time I’ll follow Wil’s format as I like the marking system he uses.

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Filling The Half-Empty Glass

Are you a glass half full or glass half empty person?

The chances are that if you’re tending towards the empty, that you also suffer from anxieties. You may even have a black dog following you around from time to time.

It’s not that you’re a doom and gloom merchant.

You can see the joy in the world as much as the next person. It’s just that when things turn bad, you find it a struggle to get out of your funk.

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Rare OK Instagram photo of mine

Rare OK Instagram photo of mine

There’s an advert you see on the tube and elsewhere of  woman yawning and – I think – the strap-line is something like ‘Tired of being tired?’

That is my 30s summed up in one sentence, right there.

At the time put it down to having baby twins, to having just started a business and to working all hours.

Whilst that definitely didn’t help and it was a pretty gruelling time I now know that for comparison I felt like that now, in my 40s too. Waking up tired. Yawning all through the day, getting to about 2pm and almost nodding off at my desk.

Needing a power-nap to recharge and this is after I’d dropped the work load (through necessity, my body gave up) and my kids now not only slept through the night but got themselves up, fed themselves breakfast and even made us the odd cup of tea.

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Why I Love Running

The Business of Web Design Roadshow, mid 2014. Am I pregnant?

The Business of Web Design Roadshow, mid 2014. Am I pregnant?

I’m sitting here with a bit of a sadface writing this.

My physio has told me that I’m not allowed to go running until the day of my Marathon now. I overdid it in my last race (against his instructions!) so I need to rest my shins.

This has totally messed my training plan up, I should be tapering down next week instead I had to stop dead 4 weeks early (I was banned 2 weeks ago).

Still, during training I’ve done many half marathons, a few 17-milers and one 20 which was over 3 hours non-stop, so I’ll probably be fine. I am unlikely to get the time I was hoping for but I know I’ll make it around as long as I don’t get injured (which is of course why my physio has banned me)

Feeling slightly sorry for myself as I was driving home yesterday I saw a few people running and I couldn’t help but think “You lucky beeeep“. It was at this point that I realised I might actually like running more than a bit and that got me thinking: why is this?

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